Another of the missing chapter stories, this time for The Grey
King. Assume that this story takes place shortly after the novel ends.
Standard disclaimers apply. The Dark Is Rising Sequence, Will Stanton,
Bran Davies, and all related characters are copyright of the wonderful
Susan Cooper.
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Keeping a Welcome
By: Gramarye
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We'll keep a welcome in the hillsides
We'll keep a welcome in the vales
This land you knew will still be singing
When you come home again to Wales
This land of ours will keep a welcome
And with a love that never fails
We'll kiss away each hour of hiraeth
When you come home again to Wales
-- Traditional Welsh song
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The unseasonable warmth of Indian summer was long gone, and
mid-November's feeble sunlight did little to dispel the chill of
the
nights. In the mornings, the close-cropped grass in the fields
crackled underfoot, frozen in stiff spikes until the sun rose
high
enough to melt the frost. The farmhouses dotted along the
hillsides
seemed to huddle in on themselves for warmth and comfort. There
was no snow yet, but the steady rain held an unspoken promise of
winter's bitter cold.
Will had to plead and coax and argue to be allowed outside the
house
by mid-afternoon. His Aunt Jen was convinced that the moment he
stepped
out of doors he would catch cold, have an immediate relapse, and
end up
in worse shape than he had been when he'd arrived at the farm a
month
before. But once Will swore up and down that he wouldn't go far
from
the farm, and would wear as many layers of clothing as she
wished, she
couldn't refuse him for very long.
So, muffled in thick socks, long underwear, jeans, two flannel
shirts,
a thick pullover, a bright blue anorak, gloves, a face-tickling
scarf,
and a shapeless woolly hat that belonged to his Uncle David, Will
waddled out of the house.
Trickles of sweat were running down his face before he reached
the
first of the farm gates.
Bran was waiting for him by the main road, leaning against the
fence
with the relaxed poise of the newly-liberated schoolboy, school
bag
slung carelessly over one shoulder. One eyebrow arched at the
sight
of the well-wrapped boy struggling forward to meet him, but he
quickly
moved to open the last gate for Will.
Will nodded a mute thanks, and held the gate shut so Bran
could relatch
it. He noticed that Bran hadn't even bothered to go home and
change
clothes before meeting up with him, but if Bran didn't mind
tramping
around in his school uniform then Will wasn't about to waste time
or
energy worrying over it.
They set off down the road, walking more slowly than usual.
The day
was not as cold as the morning had promised, and as soon as they
were
out of sight of the farmhouse Will hurriedly shed the anorak and
draped
it over one arm.
'I told her I'd wear all this,' he said, peeling off his
gloves and stuffing
them into the pocket of the coat. He breathed a glad sigh as cool
air
hit the newly exposed skin on the backs of his hands. 'I never
promised
I'd keep it all on. I was about ready to suffocate.'
Bran nodded, and started to help Will remove his scarf.
'I can't believe you're going home tomorrow,' he said quietly.
'Mmrph -- ' Will coughed and spat out a mouthful of knitted
wool,
then finally worked free of the scarf's tangles. 'I mean, I
know.'
He took the scarf from Bran's hand and shoved it down one of the
coat sleeves. 'And back to school next week, if the doctor says I
can.'
Bran adjusted the dark glasses he was wearing. 'It feels like
you
just got here yesterday.'
'Yesterday?' Will's eyebrows went up, though his exact
expression
was hard to see underneath the woolly cap.
Bran gave him an inscrutable look over the top of the glasses,
then
started walking again, leaving Will with no choice but to trot
along
after him.
'You know what I mean,' he said over his shoulder.
'Well, it doesn't exactly feel like yesterday to me.'
Frowning, Will
kicked at a tuft of grass that had sprouted between the double
line
of tyre ruts in the road. 'Fighting mountain fires, running all
over
the countryside, nearly falling headfirst into a lake -- oh, yes,
that'll
be an interesting story to tell when I get home and Mum asks me
if
I got enough rest.'
Bran had started to head for a gap in one of the hedges that
lined
either side of the road, but at Will's words he spun round,
alarmed.
'You wouldn't --'
'Of course not,' Will said quickly, almost harshly. 'You're
the only
one who knows the whole story.'
Bran grunted. 'I know. I didn't mean it that way.'
They both fell silent. With Bran leading and Will following,
they
pushed through the prickly hedge and made their way side by side
across the open fields, skirting the edges of the mountains. They
wandered through debris still left from the mountain fire, feet
crunching in the cinders of burnt forest as they picked their way
though the scraggly remains of singed trees. Neither wanted to
go too far up the slope -- Will could feel nothing of the Brenin
Llwyd, no sign of his presence, but it was safest not to present
a
challenge to the Dark so close to one of its acknowledged
strongholds.
It was an uncomfortable silence, nothing companionable about
it,
and it wasn't broken until Will suddenly turned to Bran and said:
'Stop that.'
'Stop what?' Bran asked.
'Stop looking at me like that,' Will said, a little irritably.
'Like what?'
'Like....' Will glanced round, then hiked over to a charred
and
fallen tree trunk and sat down. He levelled a flat stare at the
other boy. 'Like you keep expecting me to say something deep
and meaningful.'
Bran huffed, and leant against the burnt-out hulk of another
dead
tree, which had landed crookedly atop the one Will had chosen for
a seat.
'Well, aren't you?' He unshouldered his schoolbag and let it
drop
to the ground. 'The first time we've been on our own since --
since
that day, and there's nothing you're supposed to tell me? Nothing
I'm supposed to know?'
Will made a pretence of pausing to think before he replied.
'No,
nothing. Not a thing.'
Bran ran his hand down the blackened trunk of the tree, and
said
nothing.
'I would tell you, if there was,' Will added. It was true, he
told
himself. There was nothing he was supposed to tell Bran, and
nothing that Bran was supposed to know. Nothing else, that is.
'You know that.'
Bran didn't reply. His eyes were entirely unreadable behind
the dark
lenses, and when he used the tip of one finger to push the
glasses
further up the bridge of his nose, it was as if he was trying to
make
sure that the wall he had decided to put up between them was
still there.
'Look, was there something you wanted me to say?' Will
prompted,
figuring that it was best to drag as much of this mood out of
Bran as
he could now, while they were alone, rather than spend their last
day
together not talking. 'Something you wanted to know?'
Bran stared out over the valley for a full minute before he spoke.
'It's just...it's weird, all right?' he said at last, and he
seemed to be
having trouble making his voice work properly. It sounded tight,
stretched too thin over his words. 'It's -- there's times when I
think
it's like the best kind of dream, but sometimes it feels like one
of
the worst, the really bad ones, like one of the ones where you
end
up in school on an exam day with no clothes on and then when you
open your mouth all your teeth fall out.' He scratched at the
charred
bark with a fingernail. 'Or something like that,' he finished
lamely.
Will waited until he was certain that Bran was not going to
say
anything more.
'It will feel like a dream, at times,' he said quietly,
thoughtfully.
'And there will be times when you will not know which part of
your
life is the dream and which is the waking. But you will always
know
that they are both part of you.'
Bran turned to stare at him, mouth hanging slightly open.
Then,
suddenly, he made a rude-sounding noise that jolted Will rather
unceremoniously back to the here and now.
'And there you go again,' he drawled. 'Tell me, Old One, is it
written down somewhere that you have to be mysterious and vague
at all times? Is it in the job description?'
'Oh, yes,' Will said lightly, returning Bran's smirk. He was
sort
of glad that Bran had broken the overly solemn moment. 'It's a
most important rule.'
'Oh, really?' Bran said, his voice mock-disbelieving.
'Really.' Will cleared his throat, tilted his chin up, and
began to talk
through his nose in a dry, austere voice, imitating Merriman at
his
most pedantic. 'Rule Number One: "It is expressely
forbidden to
speak to mortals in any manner which could be construed, however
remotely, as candid, frank, open, or otherwise straightforward.
Offenders will be subject to immediate disciplinary measures."'
Grinning, Bran shook his head. 'Good job I'm not quite mortal,
then.
When you put it like that, it's hard to believe you're joking.'
Will raised an eyebrow, a dignified and faintly superior smile
hovering
around the edges of his mouth. 'And what, pray tell, would lead
you to
believe that I am, in fact, joking?'
Bran replied in the only proper manner -- by leaning over and
punching
Will on the shoulder, nearly shoving him off the log. 'Prat.'
Will let out a very undignified yelp and leapt to his feet,
all traces of the
ageless Old One vanishing from his expression. He looked rather
young
and petulant as he rubbed his arm, and warningly, he said, 'If
you've left
a bruise, Bran Davies, I'll....'
'You'll what?'
'I'll....' He didn't quite know how to finish that threat, so
he gave up on
that line of thought -- but he had to say something, and that was
why the
next words out of his mouth were as much of a surprise to him as
they
must have been to Bran. 'I'm sorry.'
Bran had been chuckling over Will's discomfiture, but the
laugh stopped
suddenly, as if it had stuck in the back of his throat.
'For what?' he said, after a long moment.
'For...for what I said, after Cafall died,' Will said lamely.
He had
tried to talk to Bran then, to comfort his friend in his grief,
but an
Old One's words of comfort were not the words a grieving and
angry
boy had wanted to hear. 'It wasn't....' He couldn't think of an
adjective
to describe what it hadn't been, so he bit down on his lip
instead.
Unfortunately, the twinge of pain he felt wasn't exactly
conducive to
thought, either.
'At least you tried,' said Bran. His tone was colourless,
which made
the reply sound as if he was reading from a script in front of
him.
'That's more than I can say of anyone else.'
'Still, it wasn't -- ' Right. Proper. Helpful. Decent. Will
finally
gave up on his quest for a suitable adjective. 'I'm sorry. I
wasn't
trying to -- '
'Will. It's all right. Honestly.'
With those five words, Bran had closed the door on the awkward
apology.
Will knew better than to press it further.
They stood up after a few moments and started walking again,
Bran
dangling his schoolbag from one hand, Will shifting the bright
blue
anorak from arm to arm and doing his best to enjoy the sights. He
wanted to stamp the valley into his memory, take it away with him
like a full-colour picture postcard in his mind. It was a
beautiful
land, and in the month he had spent in it he had had little
chance
to appreciate it properly.
He looked around, trying to be the dutiful tourist. Look at
the
winding ridge of rocky hills, mountains and half-mountains
jutting
up in uneven humps. Look at the farmhouses and their outbuildings
dotted across the valley below. Look at the fluffy cream-coloured
clumps of sheep at pasture, like clouds spread out on a
grass-green
sky.
Caught up in the sights as he was, attention fixed on enjoying
the
landscape he had been taking for granted for weeks, the strange
feeling crept up on him so slowly that he didn't realise what was
happening until it actually interfered with his ability to
concentrate.
At first, it was like a buzzing at the back of his mind, a odd
sort of
low-frequency hum. He shook his head to clear it, wondering if
the ringing in his ears was coming back -- Doctor Armstrong had
mentioned something about 'tinnitus' being one of the
after-effects
of the hepatitis -- but then again, it wasn't really a ringing in
his
ears at all. If anything, it was a ringing in his body, and it
felt more
as if someone had struck a tuning fork hidden deep inside him and
the reverberations were coursing through his nerves, all under
his
skin.
Bran was stumping along ahead of him, oblivious, calmly
picking his
way over the rough ground, but Will found it increasingly harder
to
keep going. Finally, he couldn't take another step. He had to
stop
and give himself up to the feeling, to let it resonate in him and
through him. The coat slid down his arm and fell to the ground,
entirely forgotten.
Up ahead of him, Bran paused and stooped down. With one
finger,
he stirred a small heap of the ash on the ground, and was about
to
straighten up again when he happened to glance back and saw that
Will had stopped, frozen, almost in mid-stride.
'Will?' He set down his bag and hurried back to where Will was
standing. He came to an abrupt stop less than an arm's-length
away.
He peered at Will, then took off his glasses and cast a nervous
glance
up the hillside, shifting from foot to foot like a small animal
prepared
to make a dash for cover.
'Wh...what is it?' he said hesitantly.
'It's...not the Dark.' Will knew that much. Now that he had
stopped
walking, he could actually concentrate on what he was feeling. It
had gone from a shiver in the depths of his mind to a sensation
that
was giving him gooseflesh -- and the closer he felt Bran come to
him, the more his skin prickled. 'It's more like -- '
He never found out what he would have said it was like,
because
before he could finish, Bran's hand had shot out and took hold of
his own.
Will's eyes flew wide open, and so did his mouth as he
prepared
to ask Bran just what the hell he was playing at --
-- but when he saw the expression on Bran's face, he
temporarily
forgot how to breathe.
The Welsh boy's face was slightly turned away from Will, but
there
was no mistaking that a great change that had come over him. All
trace of nervousness and anxiety had vanished from Bran's
expression,
leaving it tranquil and composed, utterly calm -- and
unquestionably
regal.
Will's mouth snapped shut.
Bran turned his head then, and met Will's startled gaze.
A wave of giddiness swept over Will, disorienting him. He was
falling out of Time. There was no way that he could say with any
certainty if he and Bran were still in the twentieth century --
or
indeed, if they were in any century. The Welsh hills were as they
always were, timeless and remote, and the true magic was in this
moment, in the two of them on a lifeless, windswept hillside,
caught
out of Time for a ceremony witnessed only by the cold, unending
watchfulness of the High Magic.
And it was the High Magic that was now telling Will what had
to
be done.
He took a small step back, still holding Bran's hand, and
knelt with
an instinctive grace that belied his many layers of clothing.
Head
bowed, he suppressed the sudden tremor -- of awe, not fear --
that
raced through him and threatened to rattle his nerves.
'My lord Pendragon.' Reverently, he kissed the slim white hand.
He felt a gentle touch on the crown of his head, feather-light
but
nonetheless commanding. He lifted his head and gazed into
tawny-gold
eyes that radiated a quiet authority, accepting the fealty he had
sworn.
'Arise, my dewin,' came the soft, faintly amused reply.
'You need not
kneel to me.'
Will stood, as he had been commanded. 'As my master Merlion to
your
high father, so I pledge to you,' he said, clasping Bran's hand
with both
of his own. 'In loyalty, allegiance, and friendship, always.'
'My dewin, at my side,' Bran said in the same soft
voice, a voice that
belonged to a time so long ago that every word sent echoes
swirling
and eddying through Will's head. 'As it must and shall be.'
'As it must and shall be,' Will repeated, fervently.
Bran placed his other hand on top of Will's clasped ones, and
the
giddy feeling intensified until Wills head was singing, the
air was
singing, the rocks and the trees and even the mountains were
singing --
-- and then, where Old One and Pendragon had been there, were
two
eleven-year-old boys. One was still in full school uniform, while
the other was swaddled in layer upon layer of itchy winter
clothing.
The shock of falling back into Time was so abrupt that it felt
like
a solid blow to the back. Both of them staggered where they
stood,
still holding hands.
'What...was that?' said Bran, breathlessly, swaying on his feet.
'It....' Will was also finding it hard to catch his breath. He
felt
as if he had been running, sprinting flat out like in a race at
school.
'It...had to be done.'
Bran shook his head quickly, clearing his mind. His fingers
slipped
from Will's grasp (Will nearly cried out at the loss) as he
lifted a hand,
and slowly ran his fingers through his hair.
'I...' he began to say, but stopped.
'It had to be done,' Will said again, to himself this time. 'It -- it -- '
He would have continued, but the noise of his heart thundering
in
his ears made it difficult to hear himself speak. His knees
wobbled
treacherously.
'Will?' There was a hand on his arm, though Bran's voice
seemed to
come from very far away. 'Are you all right?'
'Y...yes.' He started to push Bran's hand away, but ended up
clinging
to it instead when the pushing motion threatened to overbalance
him.
'I'll be fine. I just...sit. Need to sit.'
And he sat -- or rather, he sank to his knees and let the
sitting take care
of itself. The ground was nice enough to meet him halfway and
make
the sitting a very easy task.
Bran got down next to him, crouching awkwardly on the slope of
the hill.
Even with his eyes tight shut and his knees drawn up against his
chest,
Will could feel the other boy beside him, hovering very close to
him.
At last the dizziness passed, and Will could open his eyes and
see
without squinting through the blurriness. The first thing he saw
clearly was the mixed fright and worry on Bran's face quickly
shift
to relief -- which went straight back to worry again when Will
started to get to his feet.
'Wait, don't just -- hey, what d'you think you're doing?' Bran
protested.
He let go of Will's arm as Will stood, but caught hold of Will's
wrist
as if he could pull the other boy back down to the ground.
'Getting up again.' Will brushed the grass from his jeans with
his free
hand and examined his knees carefully, checking for mud spots or
grass
stains that his aunt might notice. 'What does it look like I'm
doing?'
Bran scowled blackly at him, sitting back on his heels. 'Don't
be an
ass. You looked like you did when you first got here.' He
released
Will's wrist, but his voice was still low and anxious. 'Like you
were
going to be sick, or faint, or probably both for all I know. Are
you
sure you're all right?'
'Fine,' Will replied. When he saw that Bran didn't believe
him, he
jogged a few feet down the slope, did a little spin round with
his arms
spread wide, and jogged back up the rise until he was level with
Bran
once more. 'Look, honestly, I'm fine.'
Bran's scowl deepened even further as he stood up. 'You're not
fooling
anyone, Sais.'
Will drew a breath to argue, but something in the twist of
Bran's mouth
drove all thought of arguing from his mind.
'Did you feel it?' he breathed. He gazed at Bran with
unfocused eyes.
'I can't tell, you know, if you did or not. You must have,
there's no way
you couldn't have, but it's always so hard to tell with you and I
never
know whether or not...but if you did, then....'
He was breathing hard again, and at some point he had caught
hold of
Bran's upper arm near the shoulder and couldn't seem to make
himself
let go.
'Shh, shh.' Gently, Bran prised Will's hand from his arm and
patted it,
then let go.
'Sorry. It's just that -- ' Will sighed. Now that the dizzy
feeling had
passed he felt rather silly, and more than a little angry at
himself for
scaring Bran without reason. 'Sorry. Not exactly how I'd imagined
spending my last afternoon here.'
'Nothing to be sorry for.' Bran brushed the grass from his own
trousers.
'Besides, it's not going to be half so much fun around here
without you
to cause trouble.'
Will mock-scowled at the other boy, and bent over to pick up
his dropped
coat. 'I'll come back, you know.'
'I know,' Bran said quietly. 'But it won't be the same.'
Will had to agree with that. 'No, it won't.'
They had walked a little way down the hillside before Bran
spoke again.
'You will write, won't you?'
'Of course I'll write.'
Bran nodded. 'Good.'
When they reached the bottom of the hill, they followed the
hedgerows
until they came to the one they had pushed through on the way up.
They
shoved back through it again, returning to the road. Will rooted
around
in the sleeve of his coat for his scarf and draped it around his
neck,
then started pawing through the pockets for the gloves.
As they walked, he asked Bran a few inane questions about
school and
schoolwork. Bran replied with a singular lack of enthusiasm for
the
subject. By the time they reached the gate of the Evans' farm,
Will
was fully clothed once more and none too happy about it -- but
his
sour mood quickly faded when he saw Bran's face and the misery
that
the other boy was plainly trying to hide.
'We'll have much work to do, when I come back,' he said briskly.
'When you come back.' Bran repeated Will's words as if the
words were
some sort of lifeline, something that he could cling to to keep
himself from
drowning.
'What, you didn't think I'd be back?' Will said lightly, with
a little
smile. 'I'd like to come for a visit when I'm not supposed
to be a
hopeless invalid half the time I'm here.'
Bran smiled back at him, just a little.
'Come back, then,' he said. It was only the firm set of his
jaw that
kept the command from sounding like a plea. 'And I'll keep a
welcome
in the hillside, or however that old nonsense goes.'
Will grinned at him, waving his hands grandly as if conducting
a choir.
'Kissing away all those hours of hiraeth, too, no doubt.'
He hoped
that he was pronouncing the foreign word right -- and was
secretly
pleased when a surprised and approving look from Bran told him
that
he had. 'What exactly does hiraeth mean, anyway?'
'It's...sort of hard to explain.' Bran chewed his lower lip
for a
moment in thought. 'Probably why they keep it in the Welsh in the
song. It's a soppy sort of word. Like "homesickness",
or "nostalgia"
or....'
He trailed off abruptly, so abruptly that Will wondered if
Bran had
forgotten where he was going with his train of thought. 'Or?'
'Or "longing",' Bran said at last.
'Oh.' Will's voice was rather small.
Before the silence that followed could stretch out to
unbearable lengths,
Will's stomach broke the frozen mood by letting out a long, loud
rumble
of protest.
'Must be dinnertime,' Bran said with a smirk.
'Must be,' Will agreed. 'Are you hungry?'
Bran shrugged. 'Sort of. I've got to run home and all, but my
da said
that I could have dinner at your uncle's place, seeing as how
it's your
last night here, so I'll be back in about fifteen minutes or so.'
'Great.' Will grinned. 'Well, I'd better get in. I don't want
Aunt Jen
to send out a search party for us.'
'Search party?' Bran said, rolling his eyes. 'Not for you, dewin.
I've
a feeling that you couldn't get lost up here even if you tried
to.'
'Maybe.' Now it was Will's turn to be inscrutable. It covered
up the
fact that Bran calling him dewin made his head spin a
little, and made the
hairs on the back of his neck prickle. He opened the gate, making
certain
to latch it shut once he was fully inside. 'See you in a bit,
then.'
'Right.' Bran turned, hoisting his schoolbag fully onto one
shoulder.
'Don't eat all the bread before I get back.'
'If you don't take all night getting back, maybe I won't.'
Bran made a horrible face at him, and Will made one right back
before
turning round and racing for the farmhouse door.
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